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I hate her!!!!!!

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Breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while he got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

His best days will be some of my worst
He finally met a girl that's gonna put him first
While I'm wide awake he's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause he's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

You got her heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while he got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no

The Script

P.S, fyi i changed every "she" into "he". Duh.

Ah-viously.

I hate Lavender Brown.

Uhh, that song....

Burn

"Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of him being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn"

Burn-Usher

I've been so lazy to write anything, so sorry for the late update :( :( :(

Back in Town

Yuhuuuuuuuuu i'm back!!! Too tired to write anything.. Anyway i visited Macau too, it's a beautiful country and at night it just looked like Vegas with many casinos in there. Stunning :-)

One of my favourite photos haha. I'll tell you about my trip later 'kay? Adios!

I'll be back on 9th July

Uhhh finally i'll be leaving tomorrow morning to HK, i'm actually a bit sad 'cause i'm gonna miss my friends obviously :'( I think my phone will not be useable, just a single text message will cost Rp 5000, duh. I'll tell everything when i get back, hmmm (doain ga kena flu babi ya -__-) bye folks!

Stupid Quiz. Really, i mean STUPID.

Jaaaadi pada suatu hari gue lagi bosen banget terus masuk kamar nyokap dimana dia lagi nonton infotainment. Nah di acara itu ada bintang tamunya si Giring Nidji, terus biasa kan pas di akhir acara ada kuis melalui telfon gitu. Gini kira2 percakapannya:

Ruben (presenter): Ya halooo? Mana salamnyaaaa?
Bapak2 yang nelfon: *kresssek kresek kresek*
Ruben: Haloooo mana salamnya? Kiss emmuaaaah
Bapak2 yang nelfon: Ya ya kiss emmuuuuah
Ruben: Dengan bapak siapa dimanaaa?
Bapak2 yang nelfon: *kresssek kresek kresek*
Ruben: Halloooo bapak siapa ini? Apa? Bapak Bambang? Oh iya Bapak Bambang, ini ada Giring Nidji disini, bapak mau tanya2 apa?
Bapak2 yang nelfon: Ya *kresek kresek* itu kapan album barunya keluar?
Giring Nidji: Oh secepatnya bapak Insya Allah, makanya didoakan yaa
Ruben: Ya bapak sekarang ada kuis, ini ada pertanyaan untuk bapak, coba Giring yang bacain
Giring Nidji: (ngeliat kertasnya terus pengen ketawa) Eh ini jangan gue yang bacain dong hahahah
Ruben: Deileh ya gapapa elu aja udah
Giring Nidji: (ngeliat kertas dan nahan ketawa) Ya bapak, ini pertanyaannya..... *hening bentar* SIAPA NAMA SAYA? A. Giring atau B. Girang (tampangnya Giring udah ga kekontrol)
Bapak2 yang nelfon: (dengan sumringah) A. GIRING!!!!!
Ruben: Yak selamat bapak mendapat (shit dengan bodohnya gue lupa) ratus ribu rupiah!!!!

Abis itu gue ngakak sampe sakit perut.

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Quick Updates

I miss them. Haaa tiba2 jadi kangen, Iceng udh ke Singapur, Disyah sibuk ngurusin teater dan kontes Remaja Cerianya itu ckck emang wanita sibuk banget tuh orang, dan tiba2 sedih ngebayangin ntar ga sekelas lagi huhu......... Gue sama Nissa kan masuk IPS sisanya pada IPA. Ah. Sedih :'(

Sumpah ya 1 jam yang lalu gue nerima sms 5 halaman dari itu tuh, gila ya gue melotot, bengong, nutup mulut, langsung masuk kamar, terus.............. nangis (anjrit sinetron banget ga sih). Udah mana gue lagi meler ditambah nangis segala ah ancur deh pokonya. Akhirnya gue bales aja tuh di message fb, ngeluarin semua unek2, terus begitu udh kenyang ngeluarin semuanya dan gue juga udh kenyang nangisnya akhirnya gue memutuskan gamau kaya orang bodoh lebih lama lagi haha ya terserah deh pokonya gamau mikirin.....capek gila.
Untung ya ada 2 hal yang ngebuat mood gue baik kembali, i found Alvin and the Chipmunks singing Boom Boom Pow haha click here to check it out! Terus yang keduaaaaaaaa, i'm going to HK this holiday heheheheheh so happy :))))))) ya tapi semoga aja beneran jadi ya, biasalah bokap gue orangnya suka ga terencana gitu haha.

I want to see Disneyland so baaaad, ckck maklumlah ya belom pernah sih -____-

Mimobot USB!

Awwwww i just found these things and it's effin' cuteeee! Omg omg i want one =p

huhu pengen :(((( Check them out here!

Emma Watson in Teen Vogue photos

On taking fashion risks: "There's nothing interesting about looking perfect—you lose the point. You want what you're wearing to say something about you, about who you are."


On her on-screen romance in The Half-Blood Prince: "At the beginning, it looks like [Hermione and Ron are] on their way to finally being together, but of course Ron screws it up. So she's jealous, and doesn't quite realize it, and they have all these arguments."

On acting in the future:

"There's not, like, a burning passion in me that I have to act and I don't care what I do. Until something comes along that I feel as strongly about as I did Hermione—like, I felt that it was life or death—I don't want to act again."

Oh isn't she gorgeous?

Quote of the day

Grief Cycle

(source)

This is what i've been through right now, it is a cycle when someone is filled with sorrow or unhappiness, and a process for that person to heal themself and bring things back to normal. It's been a month since i broke up and yes, i suck at this. Really, badly. I'm not a person who can move on in a short time, i'm not a person who can forget someone quickly. Well the fact is i hate to be a person like this, maybe when i'm with my friends i can forget all of these things but when i'm alone i just become too......fragile. Pathetic. I found these Grief-Cycle thing on this site.

1. Denial
After the initial shock has worn off, the next stage is usually one of classic denial, where they pretend that the news has not been given. They effectively close their eyes to any evidence and pretend that nothing has happened.

2. Anger
The next step after denial is a sudden swing into anger, which often occurs in an explosion of emotion, where the bottled-up feelings of the previous stages are expulsed in a huge outpouring of grief. Whoever is in the way is likely to be blamed. In a company this includes the managers, peers, shareholders customers and suppliers. The phrase 'Why me?' may be repeated in an endless loop in their heads. A part of this anger thus is 'Why not you?', which fuels their anger at the those who are not affected, or perhaps not as seriously so.

3. Bargaining
After the fires of anger have been blow out, the next stage is a desperate round of bargaining, seeking ways to avoid having the bad thing happen. Bargaining is thus a vain expression of hope that the bad news is reversible.

4. Acceptance
The final stage is back to one of stability, where the person is ready and actively involved in moving on to the next phase of their lives, no matter how short. The terminally ill person will be putting their life in order, sorting out wills and helping others to accept the inevitability that then now have countenanced and faced.

(source)

I think i'm in the anger stage right now, anger is dominating much of my feelings, i oftenly feel mad and questions like "how come he could forget everything so fast?", "did he lied about everything he said?", "didn't every things that we've been through together means absolutely nothing for him?", or "how could he done this to me? i trusted him..." is spinning around in my head. But at night, when i'm going off to bed, i remember again how he always makes me laugh, and then that's it. The questions suddenly turned into "isn't there a way for us to get back?" ............see? That's why i hate this part of myself, this fragile part. I'm getting tired of this, erghhh just bring me to the acceptance stage quickly please :'(

The Fallen is coming...

Akhirnyaaaaaa tadi nonton Transformers 2 di Citos, untung ga ngantri yang heboh2 banget gitu kirain udh kaya ngantri sembako hahahah soalnya tadi datengnya dari siang sih.. It's a cool movie, (yeah sure it is, everybody's been waiting for it) cuman entah kenapa kok gue lebih suka yang pertama ya haha ceritanya ga begitu belibet soalnya, terus yang di ke2 ini banyak banget adegan fightnya dengan efek yang duahsyat tapi somehow malah bikin pusing hehehe. Ya tapi gatau juga sih, gue ga terlalu konsen nontonnya lagi2 gara2 Riris yang ribut sendiri, ga bisa diem banget ckck. Untung kita ga dilemparin sepatu -,- Megan Fox is smokin' hot hahahah gila gue jamin cowo2 yg nonton udah megap2 tuh.. Liat aja kan di posternya ada tulisan "much more Megan Fox" yak jadi kayanya dia bisa dibilang salah satu magnet film ini hahaha apa deh mulai ngaco. Oh iya di film yg ke-2 ini menurut gue juga udah mulai ada adegan2 yang seharusnya ga begitu pantes ditonton untuk anak2 sekecil jempol gitu (yang tadi memenuhi bioskop) . Shia Labeouf gantengan di yang pertama entah kenapa haha.

yaudah deh lagi males nge-post sebenernya, next time i'll tell you about my biggest disease right now okaaay hahahaha bye!

So-called-wish list

Gosh, i'd KILL to have this thing right now.. It's touch screen, it's Qwerty, and it has 5 mpx camera. Tempting.

Shopping. Ya nggak selebay di gambar itu juga sih... Haha but this thing is on the top on my bad habits list right now. Everytime i go to a store i feel like i can't leave without buying one. Ew. Creepy. This situation doesn't fit with the money in my wallet right now. However, Ladies Day Bazaar at Citos is my number 1 pleasure :-)

My bad habit on number 2 explains a lot why i need this. My clothes have been exploaded all over the place, it's not tidy anymore, so a walk-in-closet would be like HEAVEN. Oh i've wanted this since a long time ago, but this time i NEED this, well at least i need a bigger place to save my clothes.



I obviously need this one. I sort of thinking much about beach, it looks like a sweet place to escape....... haha i don't know. I'm just too tired of all the things that's happening right now. I hope the plan that my class are going to Anyer will be fulfilled. Going to the beach with your friends will bring so much fun, i guess. Well, at least it will help me lose my pain a little bit.

This wish list is not in a correct order, and i made this post because i just have nothing to do haha. But i hope this will do come true :)))))

Moving on so fast?

Gosh, please stop being a jerk, just....... please. Would you do that?

It's 23rd June, yeah so what......... he wouldn't be care enough to remember.
Dammit i'm just too upset right nowwwww

Nice!

Hey peopleeeee yesterday i watched Garuda Di Dadaku, it's effin' cool you knowwww, here let me tell you the story:

Bayu (Emir Mahira) yang duduk di kelas 6 SD punya mimpi jadi pemain sepak bola. Dia setiap hari dateng ke sebuah lapangan bulu tangkis untuk berlatih sendiri. Bayu punya sahabat namanya Heri, yang juga penggila bola tapi ga bisa main bola karena dia duduk di kursi roda. Dia meyakinkan Bayu supaya ikut seleksi Tim Nasional U-13 yang nantinya bakal mwakili Indonesia di laga internasional. Tapi Pak Usman, kakek Bayu, sangat menentang keinginan Bayu menjadi pemain bola karena menurut dia pemain sepak bola identik dengan hidup miskin dan tidak punya masa depan.

Iya itu sekilas aja ceritanya. Menurut gue akting Bayu dan Heri itu bagus banget untuk anak seumuran mereka, ga kurang dan ga berlebihan. Ceritanya juga bagus, dapet banget feel-nya. Gue suka banget ceritanya yang ngangkat tema tentang sepakbola di Indonesia. Bahkan gue yang bukan fanatik bola suka hehe. Pengambilan gambarnya juga bagus banget kok apalagi pas adegan2 terakhir yang dia lagi tanding di lapangan bola gitu. Film ini jauhhhh lebih bagus dari 2 film Indonesia terakhir yang gue tonton, Ketika Cinta Bertasbih sama Queen Bee. Sumpah KCB kebanting banget sama Ayat-Ayat Cinta, itu sangat mirip sinetron dan endingnya yang to be continued itu "what-the-heck" banget. Menurut gue loh ya. Pokoknya film ini highly recommended bangetlah, nonton ya haha ga nyesel deh. Yaudah segitu aja ya hehe maaf ga becus bikin review :-D bye!

P.S, ada satu kalimat yang paling gue inget di film ini. Si Bayu ngomong: "I like Liverpool, I like Steven Gerrard" yeah it reminds me of..................... ergh whatever.

Say bye to exams!

Heyyy it has been a week since my last post, i was too lazy to write anything. Yesterday the-such-a-nonsense-sumatif is finally overrrrrr yeay! Haha it feels sooo grrrreat. I didn't study that much, well to make it more obvious, i even didn't touch a book very often. Riris&Disyah stayed in my house for a week, they said that they want to study and THEY DID. Wow. How could they're soooo dilligent like that? They should push me to study like them -,- They studied seriously, and guess what i was doing? I played the computer and watched DVDs all night hahahaha. If you're wondering how i could i get through that exam week, well i.............. asked the answers to my friends. As you can say, cheating. Yes i cheated a loooooooot oh my gosh (ya tapi bukan gue doang yaaa, almost everyone was doing it huehehe). Sooo yesterday i went to Citos with Riris&Nissa, we watched 17 Again.

(capek pake bhs inggris) Ini film bagus loooooh mungkin banyak yang mikir ini film cheesy2 gimanaa gitu secara temanya udah umum, tentang orang dewasa yang balik lagi ke masa remajanya gitu. Zac Efron meranin Mike O'Donnell waktu umur 17 tahun. Bisa dibilang selama ini gue ga begitu suka sama Zac Efron karena perannya yang di High School Musical agak gimanaaa ya nyanyi2 nari2 gitu........... agak gay -,- Tapi setelah nonton film ini anggepan itu ilang loh hahaha dia bisa ngebuktiin kalo dia bisa akting ga cuma nyanyi2 nari2 doang, dan disini dia tuh omg omg omg banget gantengnya hahahahah. Oh ya terus yang gue suka lagi ada Michelle Tratchtenberg (yang jadi Georgina di Gossip Girl), dia jadi anaknya si Mike O'Donnell.

On my next post i'll probably write about another movie that i just watched too :-D Gotta go now, byeeee!

Looklet

Hey i've just made a Looklet account, it's soooo much fun haha check it out :-D

oh and remember that i'm new to this so...... yeah i'm really an amateur :))))

Can't waitttt

Screw sumatif!!! Astaga ngapain banget sih udah jelas ga dimasukin nilai raport gitu YA-TERUS-BUAT-APAAA? I don't even want to start studying, for heaven's sake. Aaaaanyway, i freakinly can't wait to watch these movies:

oh God i wish i could just press the skip button.......... skip all those nonsense test and welcoming holiday immidiately!!! By the way here's one thing that i'll do in this upcoming holiday:

Well my Dad and my driver gave their hands up for this, they've been teaching me and they always got sooo much nerves when they sit next to me and watching me drive hahaha they said i drive them nuts but hey i didn't do anything that extremeeeee, please don't get so "lebay". Yeah so my Dad sent me to a driving course, let's just hope that i can learn fast and i don't mess anything around okaaaaay haha